I am feeling like I would like to find a cave and hide. Mostly
because I do not want to think about Tim’s illness and the possible
outcomes. And people keep asking. They are concerned for Tim, Coralie
and Henk, and me. But I would be happy not discussing anything right
now. The uncertainties are pretty worrying. And I am tired of ‘faking’
it – trying so hard to be positive that my face aches with the smile.
Tim is not well at the moment and I am scared the BMT will be
cancelled. He is miserable. His meds have been increased 3x.
On the positive side I have lost a little bit of weight, I have not
weighed myself, but my clothes are fitting a bit better. I have
stopped drinking alcohol during the week, and over the weekends
limiting myself. I have started walking, only in the complex driveway
at the moment, which is 200m long; so one lap is 400 m. I am up to 4
laps, nearly 2km! Maybe by next week I will get up to 2kms. This is
the most exercise I have done in years, and now my Achilles Tendon is
reminding me why I stopped!
We are watching the DFL IPL 20/20 Cricket at the moment, it is a great
game and very exciting. Shane Warne is back from Aus, he and Gillcrest
are worth watching, they are the older players that have nothing to
lose, and go out to smash sixes off the ball. Feel jealous if you do
not have access to the games!
I have another trip booked for CT. 30 to 4th April. Boy, I am going to
be getting my voyager miles again.
love and hugs